a silly little post about my feet...AKA ignorance is bliss

i used to think i had the cutest little feet. they weren't too big and they werent too small either...just hovering around a size 7.5

believe it or not - when i looked down at them i would smile - being grateful that i didn't have toes that look like mushrooms...or that my second toe wasn't 3 inches longer than my big toe.  sure my toe nails are tiny and my pinky toes hide behind their neighbors which make pedicures a nitemare...but i just figured it was because my feet were so "dainty"

i was perfectly happy with my feet.

until that one fateful day at the pool

.....with my cousins. 

we were just hanging out and somehow got on the topic of feet (which of course makes me smile in and of itself) and my cousin angela mentions she has webbed feet.  we all start to tease her until she points out that we ALL have webbed feet - its in our family!  i loudly protested - I DO NOT HAVE WEBBED FEET!  to which she pointed down and said - yes you do...........right here.....

WHAT????!!!!

IS THAT WHAT THAT IS??!!

i was mortified! (and i have to admit i am even more mortified at the fact that i cropped the photo to show you!! so not only can you see my freaky toes but you can also see that i am in dire need of a pedicure!) all these years i LOVED my feet and especially what i thought were my cute little dainty toes...and now when i look down i wish i had a little pair of perfectly painless scissors that i could use to just give a little "snip" in between those toes so they match the others........... 

do my weird little webbed toes keep me from being barefoot or in sandals year round...no

do my weird little webbed toes keep me from being called a duck by my husband and kids (who love the fact that i am so shocked by my recent revelation)...no

do my weird little webbed toes distract me from my breathe as i bend into forward fold...no

no they don't do any of those things - they are just toes really...

and for them i grateful

 because without them i couldn't stand or walk or run very well

...at least that is what i keep telling myself

whenever i look at them

which happens to be a lot

ah - ignorance is bliss.......

Why I Wake Early - well at least according to my vision board

this year i completed my vision board right under the gun. its much smaller than my last one and because i didn't have a variety of magazines - its pretty limited in my vision....but maybe not? maybe its exactly as it should be.  we shall see.

i keep it tacked on the wall by my bathroom sink.  i really wanted to make sure i looked at it every day. 

there are areas i find myself concentrating on more than others.

this is the main one. 

recently i started a sunrise kundalini class and i can not even begin to put into words how much i love this class.  we arrive at 5:30am...just before the sun awakens or the birds begin their song.

  we start with our opening chant

 - Ong Namo Guru Dev Namo -

and by the time 7am comes i am completely transformed.

i rarely wake up that early in the morning. if i do - for whatever reason - its usually not by choice.  there are some mornings when i find myself just waking up as the birds are beginning to sing.  i lie in bed and just listen - telling myself to be present and simply enjoy the moment.  but those mornings don't come very often.

yet i find myself up at 5am on wednesday morning - ready to get to class.  the more i go - the more i see the beauty in that hour....and the more i want to try and use that time for myself.

which is why i put it on my vision board.

"i look forward to a serene hour with the sunrise"

Why I Wake Early

Hello, sun in my face.

Hello, you who made the morning

and spread it over the fields

and into the faces of the tulips

and the nodding morning glories,

and into the windows of, even, the

miserable and the crotchety –

best preacher that ever was,

dear star, that just happens

to be where you are in the universe

to keep us from ever-darkness,

to ease us with warm touching,

to hold us in the great hands of light –

good morning, good morning, good morning.

Watch, now, how I start the day

in happiness, in kindness.

~ Mary Oliver ~

can't put it off much longer

i've been away for so long that i'm afraid that if i wait another day - it will magically turn into 2 days - then 2 weeks then 2 months......

i really haven't wrapped my mind around what i want to say about where i've been or what i've been up to...

i don't have months worth of pictures lying around either. having a camera that i don't understand has bummed me out (i finally emailed sony and told them that not including a manual was just plain wrong and i had no intention of spending hours reading it online - or dragging my computer around to take pictures or printing out 200 pages myself............so they are sending me one. we'll see how long that takes....)

so in the meantime i'll just show a quick summary of recent events.......

 

science fair exhibits

(this year he made quicksand)

planning a medieval party

 (complete with scrolled invites and i'm thinking a too ambitious to-do list for the party)

indoor egg hunt

(in which one egg is still left unfound somewhere in this house)

just playing with the camera (like letting it decide what should be in focus

 and seeing how sharp the picture is)



deciding to take pictures of not so pretty things in my yard

(to balance out the pictures of oh so pretty things in my yard still to come!)

so there it is - my first post in a long time.  maybe not too exciting - but at least a step in the right direction........