unthink

it is monday nite

the eve before the first day of december

25 days before christmas

and i find myself exactly where i don't want to be.

- coming home to the dirty dishes, dirty laundry and dirty bathrooms i didn't get to before we left for the weekend.......

- sitting at a table covered with school papers i set aside "to look at later".........and realizing "later" is right now

- staring at a datebook filled with upcoming practices, games, volunteering, shows, parties, scouting events.........

- noticing a home that has yet to be decorated for any holiday so far this autumn.....

- unable to focus - on gifts, recipients, menus.......

- wondering how we'll pay for it all.............

- saddened by the thought that i will blink and once again christmas will be gone......

so

tonite

instead of stressing over it all

i am turning off my mind

and listening to my heart

i am deciding what is important to me this holiday season and making the choice to take it day by day. if i get to the *musts* - great.........if i don't - even better.

so

tonite

i am finishing my tea

and going to bed

tomorrow i will regroup

reprioritize

i will slow down

i will unthink about

later